What's been happening
My plan was to solely focus on gaining strength and getting some things in order at home, but my attention was diverted by this. The only thing I was interested in doing was writing a post spewing my thoughts, hatred and details of the situation... what gave me pause was the fact that my ex-husband used my health, previous posts and my GoFundMe page (can you believe it?) against me in court. Besides being pissed off about him using that against me I was even more aggravated that he was able to misconstrue my words by taking a couple of paragraphs of a post to prove his point. In essence saying I'm unable to take care of my children because of finances and my health.
|I miss everyday life with my kids|
|IV machines were my friends|
|Steroids added some pounds|
So you can see why my plans for health updates/posts and even my desire to publish posts were upset. I know there are individuals who are looking for anything they can use against me hence my lack of posts. I'm not even going to mention the leftover effects of treatment that cause what we call "chemo brain." It's funny (again with that word) how someone can be so helpful and seem so concerned then can turn around and stab you in the back. The only thing left to say is comeuppance.
The real health update
I've been continually getting stronger and have more stamina. My white blood cell count has been slowly going down over the last several weeks, but it's still within the low normal range so supposedly it's okay. Right now they're talking about maintenance drugs, which will be a low dose chemotherapy regimen. I'm not sold on this standard treatment, but it's not something I have to make a decision on right away.
The only somewhat negative is my fight with fibromyalgia and sjogren's syndrome. Both were temporarily alleviated after the stem cell transplant, but the symptoms and pain have slowly returned. I'm doing what's necessary to minimize the pain and follow the advice that I know works. Losing almost 40 pounds after finally getting off of steroids has helped tremendously. I'm so happy to be looking more like myself and look forward to losing some more weight.
|Wig #1... a bit conservative.|
|Wig #2... a lil sporty.|
|Wig #3... my fav.|
What would you do?