About four or five (okay, make that six) years ago I was the master of multitask. I could write a magazine article, put up a blog post and make a phone call all while breastfeeding a baby.
Sure there were times when I had to slow down or take a break, but for the most part I moved at break-neck speed. There was so much to do and I did my damnest to get it all done.
When my marriage ended I had an infant, two toddlers and a teenager - not the best conditions or timing, but that's life... That was my life. My baby had been born five weeks early, my teenager was sick and ended up in the hospital and my health was deteriorating.
My memory failed me, my emotions were crazy and I was depressed, which I realized in hindsight. Long story short, everything changed and I did as well.
Realizing my limitations and honoring them has been hard for me. Even if there is something I want to do I have to remember, and fully evaluate, it's highly probable that what is on my list is already too much.
I will have to say no.
Take, for instance, yesterday's International Love Day. I wanted to, expected to and (sorta) committed to participating in and sharing all the LOVE-ly activities, but because of my commitment and limitations ~ sigh ~, I wasn't able to do what I wanted.
That's the kicker; not being able to do what I want. So today, and for the rest of Love Month as I continue to honor people in my life, I'm going to put myself at the top of the list.
It's what self love is all about; being "madly about me."
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