Thursday, January 7, 2010

It's official

The past two years have been quite an experience. Well, honestly, the past eight years have been life changing and memorable... quite the experience. I'm sitting here trying to figure out how to verbalize what I'm thinking/feeling and I guess I'm a little stuck.

Relief (re: finality)

Regret (re: union)

Happiness (re: new chapter)

Sadness (re: failure)

Hmmm? There are a lot of emotions swirling around.

When I saw the envelope in my mailbox I knew what it contained. So I wasn't surprised when I read the cover letter, which consisted of two sentences: "Enclosed is a copy of your final Judgment and Decree of Divorce and Income Deduction Order. ..."

ImageChef.comThen the wording of the judgement: "... as if no such contract had ever been made or entered into... considered as separate and distinct... unconnected..." Interesting.

I don't know about anyone else, but I think regardless of the circumstances surrounding the dissolution of a marriage there will always be feelings, thoughts, emotions surrounding the finality of it. It's quite a surreal, freeing feeling that causes anxiety and excitement.

Should I celebrate? Cry? Shout? Party? Take a nap? LOL... Well, right now I think I'll just have a third cup of coffee. I deserve it. After eight years, two and a half of those spent separated, I am no longer married.

It's official.