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Saturday, June 13, 2009

Beginning and end

Guess where I am sitting right now?

Give up?

I am sitting in Amber's dorm room. Yup, today is the day when she starts her college education. She is beginning with a scholar's program this summer and will continue in the fall.

SIGH.

It's exciting and anxiety producing. Amber is my oldest child, but my biggest baby. She is my friend and daughter. And, of course, my feelings are mixed.

We've unpacked her room - for the most part, and I will post pictures of her room later today or tomorrow. She's in the kitchen now with one of her suite mates unpacking food and whatnot. I stood out there for awhile watching them get to know each other. They laughed and discovered things they had in common.

The moment made me smile.

She doesn't need me as much anymore, but - on the other hand - I know she will need me. I feel comfort in knowing that when we got here she began to feel more relaxed and not as anxious.

The scholar's program is pretty intensive. Today, she has a meeting at 3 with her mentor and those in that group. Then there's a dinner at 5 or 6. I don't think they have a class tonight, but they have one tomorrow. Yes, that's right, on Sunday.

It's a little after 12 p.m. and I - along with all the other parents - am required to leave the west campus by 2/2:30. At first, when Amber was finished with her room and there wasn't much more to do I was going to go ahead and go. Then she indicated she wanted me to stay until the time I had to leave.

The moment made me smile.

I am so proud of my little girl. As I sit at her desk, on her laptop, in her room I marvel at how far we've come. In a couple of hours I don't know if I'll cry as I hug her good-bye (at least she can come home for 4th of July weekend) or if tears will drip down my face as I drive home alone.

The only thing I know for sure is that my heart swells with love for her. She is such a marvelous young woman. Right before my eyes she's blossomed, grown, matured and begins a new life.

Good luck and God bless, Munchkin, Mommy loves you!
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