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Monday, March 30, 2009

Monday's Muse: A shell of a memory

I've never been able to find a suitable location in my home for the conch shell I got during a trip to Turks & Caicos more than seven years ago. About a week ago I moved it from a spot in my office where it had sat for quite a number of years and put it on the bookshelf where I keep the O Magazines*, which I can't bear to throw away.

Truth be told, the last time I was moving things around in the office my youngest scratched her leg on it. I thought briefly about throwing it away because the vision I have for my beach-colored, tranquil, spa-like master bathroom seems too far away and dreamlike to save it. That dream room is unrealistic in this house because we have one bathroom that I share with four children. But each time I think of disposing of the shell; I just can't bring myself to do it.

That shell once held a life - a large saltwater snail to be exact. It's also a symbol of a carefree and happy time for me: I was doing travel writing and the trip to Turks & Caicos was the first my oldest daughter, who was about 10 at the time, was able to attend with me. She was quite impressed with our travel and accommodations, but most importantly it was a moment we were able to share together.

At the time I envisioned being able to share more trips like that with her. I had a lot of dreams that are starting to fade including returning to Turks & Caicos. Those fading dreams made me think that the shell no longer fits its purpose.

Now I keep glancing at it... I guess I can still see possibilities in it. And if I pay close attention I can still hear my dreams coming from it. More than seven years ago I had high hopes for the life path I was on and I thought (just like conch that lived within) the dreams died away.

The reality is I can't let those dreams die. I may not have been able to bring a live conch home, but I have the most beautiful part - the shell. My memories are also the beautiful part and the dreams may be fading, but I can let that shell spark new dreams.

What sparks your dreams today?

For more of mine check out all of my other Monday's Muse posts.

*For me, each O Magazine is a message of self, creativity and womanhood. It's the evidence of a woman's dream that I can't stand to part with.
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