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Sunday, October 26, 2008

I want more

Random weekend thought

Are you familiar with More magazine? It's a publication that celebrates women who are 40 years old and older. I was reading the 10th anniversary special issue today and I was only a few pages in when I realized that More really encompasses how I feel about who I am as a 40-year-old woman.

I also realized that I want more out of life. More from my life. Lately, there have been so many things going wrong or coming up that have made living life even more difficult. Although it brings me down and makes me wonder why I even try to get ahead, I know that I want more.

I've been trying to clean off my desk tonight and process some paperwork (where does it all come from?) and I came across a note I had written about a year ago. I'd written the question: What do I really want to do with my life? --> Follow my heart. That was my answer. Then I had written a list of the things I want to do:

1. Profit from my blog and my writing.
2. Publish my books.
3. Do what's necessary to see my invention ideas turned into products.
4. See my non-profit venture succeed.
5. Earn another degree.
6. Teach college course(s) part time.

As I review that list there doesn't seem to be anything on there that isn't possible. I've been doing a little bit better with number one and it's even more rewarding because it's something I love to do. Concerning number two, I recently sent my children's book manuscript to another agent and if that one isn't interested I won't give up. And I hope to complete one of my novels sometime in the near future (a year or so is realistic, I guess).

Numbers three through six are a little hazier. I need to get my oldest daughter situated as far as college is concerned so my higher education aspirations may have to wait another year. Although I have the non-profit idea; it is a lot of work to bring to fruition. And getting another degree will open up more doors as far as teaching college is concerned.

Even as I belly ache to my BFF about giving up and giving in there is still a desire deep down within for more. Forty years old is still young (I keep trying to convince myself of that) so I have a lot of time to accomplish some of my dreams. As long as I continue to desire more.

So, tell me, what are your dreams? What do you want?
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