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Friday, March 28, 2008

Get ready....

...for a rant!

The last couple of days have been a little less than pleasant for me. Maybe pleasant isn't the right word. Some things just haven't been going as I'd like. The week started out okay with some promising leads on jobs and assignments, but quickly went down the tube yesterday.

For the past couple of weeks on Tuesday and Thursdays a lady who I've known for quite some time has been so kind as to watch the baby for a few hours. When we made the arrangements we sat down and I said, "What about Tuesdays and Thursdays from 11 a.m. 'til about 4?" She said okay.

As the weeks have passed she either hasn't been there or wanted me to drop her at 12 or 1 and pick her up at about 3/3:30. That would be fine had we agreed to that or had she just told me the time I needed wasn't okay. Well, I've been scheduling stuff -- phone interviews, errands and the like -- during that time. And still haven't gotten anything done because I'm waiting for those days to do it.

I scheduled a phone interview for yesterday at 1:30 thinking that if she (the lady) was late or not there then it would still give me time to make the appointment, which I was already prepared for. Well, I arrive and she's not there. I find out she won't be there until about 1:30. SIGH!

So, I bring the baby home with me trying to figure out how I can do the phone interview with a baby that's less than cooperative and one of the nosiest babies I know. I give her lunch, a bottle and... I must admit... a little infant's Motrin to "encourage" sleep.

The medicine had the opposite affect. She was soooooo wired! And I was so nervous... what would I do with her when the woman called for the interview? Well, 1:30 came and it went... by 3:30 after sending an email, attempting contact and not getting a response I realized that I had stressed for nothing. HOWEVER, once again I had been inconvenienced. (Yes, I can look at the glass as half full and realize that it worked out great! Besides my frazzled nerves.)

That doesn't even touch the fact that I was supposed to be writing my CV for an international contract. The CV should have been completed on Tuesday... Wednesday at the latest, but since the teenager was doing a project and couldn't care for the baby; I was "stuck." So, I had planned on doing it yesterday morning while the baby was with the lady... but as we know that didn't work out either.

So, I was gonna work on the CV last night, but the baby was up, busy and into everything while the teenager once again worked on her homework and projects. (Why does she have to be so responsible?!)

Then my 4-year-old has a stomach ache and a fever, which he still had this morning. So I call the sitter and say, "I'm gonna bring the baby and Amareah instead of Andre." Okay, she says. But calls back later to say that she has an appointment and her mom, who watches the kids while she's out or whatever, wasn't feeling well and she had XYZ child(ren) to care for. Well, it doesn't make sense for me to just take one kid cause it's the baby who is the most work or whatever so I have three kids home and no chance of getting any real work done.

So, I after let their dad know that he doesn't have to worry about coming to get them to take them to daycare I sit there and cry. I'm a little under the weather -- physically and emotionally -- and I'm beginning to feel like my time or what I have to do is not deemed as important as others' time and responsibilities.

I text their dad and say, "Is there anyway you can get them tonight because I have work I need to do as well." Of course, he responds with "remember I have XYZ to do tonight so I can get them in the morning." Yup, something else more important than what I need to do.

I'm not even going to mention the inconvenience of having to have them ready and their stuff together by 7:30 a.m. since I have to leave by 8 a.m. to ensure the teenager makes it to her practice SAT by 9 a.m.

There's no CV completed, I'm not sure if I'll be able to do any job hunting or assignment stuff or whatever today. I'm just sick of everyone's crap coming before mine. I don't care about someone's appointments if they've already been paid to watch my kids; I don't care about what else anyone has to do when they've committed to doing something for me... the only thing I care about right now is that my crap is falling through the cracks and everyone else is getting done what they need to do.

Why do I even try?

I guess I should take care of the screaming baby that's next to me. She refuses to hold her bottle and she's upset because she wants it. Another battle of the wills between me and the 10-month-old... she'll probably win. Again.
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